In Another Life Time

Our life is build in a condition of certainty, it is crafted in a manner that we have a opaque perception of its destination and most oftentimes we stand in belief of what is current but why do petals plunge to death and the world seems to age in a manner that is contradicting to what we perceive.

It is not what I have foreseen with our relationship. Fate has destined us to meet and even in spite the few certain times we have parted ways and bid goodbye it has brought us back together. I was contented and never in a lifetime had I felt this extreme bliss having you neither near nor far, but how can you hold on to love when you decide to let go and not see the man in me who have loved you unconditionally?  And no matter how much I knocked in your heart how can you hear it when you have build a strong concrete barrier between us? It had made a fool out of me and right now I could completely say that I am insane, can’t eat, can’t sleep, can’t think for in everything that surrounds me reminds me of you and I. Pain consistently drawn me every second of the day, regretful and pity had consumed this being who use to share the joy and the life we once shared. I really want to fight to what I believe that deep inside your heart theirs is still me even if it means a lesser space in your heart, saying this is breaking me into pieces and right now at this very moment tears just simply fall and its falling fast same as what is happening between you and me.

I believe what wasn’t meant to be, wasn’t meant for now. I will wait in another life time and I will wait patiently because you’re the only person I want to spend the rest of my life with, even if I have to wait for eternity. I am not even certain if you will be able to read this post or will come across to this blog but I’m writing this down to remind me of that special love in a wrong time.

I love you goodbye.

Silence Tongue

I haven’t met you yet, but I listen to this song, and the way it makes me feel, it makes me know you, and I hope that I will meet you someday because it is the feeling of being in love and I know that it’s ridiculous to feel this from listening to a song.

You! Who are you, where are you, and why is it taking so long? I don’t even see you in the horizon, but one day, there you will be, no questions need assuring and forever will loom in front of us, something, days, weeks, years, all with this feeling at the bottom of it, chills going through my stomach and the biggest, stupidest smile on my face reflected back to me on your face.

A lot of things had happen lately since the last blog I posted, it sucks but I have no choice but to be silent about it, taking time to be away from everything including my writing thoughts. This couple of months made a better person in a way I have ousted my anger, depression, and my hatred in the world and have resonated with clear thoughts and unblemished heart. It was an unordinary task cause most of the things I wrote are based on emotions, I have allowed pain to take toil within me till my heart becomes numb and my weary eyes could no longer bare to shed tears no more.  

I become tired of chasing answers to pressing questions, more in the idea of serendipity and the thought of love. I used to be optimistic about it but as I evaluate things love was never meant to be a pursuit but waiting.   

So this time I will wait and let God be the cupid. 

Waiting

I think you are the sea that stretches out before me, where eternity lies on the horizon, and your beauty endures everlasting. You’re the vapor -- moist and cool, pouring yourself over me. As a wave's gentle rhythm, you come wrapping smoothly over my heart.

You are the heaven that pours perpetual ecstasy. You are bluer than indigo, frosted and tipped with iridescent clouds, a contrast, shuddering against the crisp green earth. Verdant and luxuriant, you become as I stretch out in your love.

How can you be so many things to me? What can I become in return? Till the day I die, I will get up each day to write all the poems in my heart for you, but I think I can never find enough words to express the love that I feel, I’m sealed by this emotion that such affection be in contemplate with your blessing.

The image of your face is an endless repetition in my mind. Your voice runs as a deep river in my soul. I imagine your touch and I feel as if a wind blows through me. I see you and pray that the unexpected will happen - that you will see me.

Is there a combination from the infinitesimal number of words that exist that could make you love me? Do you recognize me? I am the one that remains silent, a captive heart, wishing to be set free by your love.

What is it that comes after me, that in spite of the little taught that I have shared with you had lured me into a trap. Speak to me with words that your hearts possess. Speak to me like a noble waiting for your command.

May I be the person that you truly love?

I wait… for your coming.

The Sweetest Emotions that springs

Love is the sweetest emotion, that springs, love is like that tender kiss, you gave me at the start, love is to see that special smile, appear on your face, love is like a bouquet, with its trimmings and lace love is like sunshine, strong and true, love is all that i feel so deeply for you.

I can’t find the words to describe how I feel about you that I have not already written. I have expressed my love for you and my desire in burning passion in a million folds. These emotions have not changed nor will they. A day without you makes me very forlorn and melancholy. How much I long and wanted you near me, to treat you like a lady, to shower you with affection, attention, love and devotion; to prove beyond doubts how happy, joyous and dedicated I am to your love.

I want none of this world but to share my life’s simplicities, to be real, necessary, important and rewarding part of yours. Have I told you already I hear you in my sleep? Your melody accompanies me during my days. Do you remember we blinked and I felt you through my body like a prayer? Circling, breathing moving only ever upward I cherish your memories beyond these earthly binds and every breath I offer is in your name.

I am not starved now. I am revealed for you have eradicated doubts with contentment. You are the sweetest emotions that ever springs that confess within my soul.

I Love You Goodbye

I sit here in sorrow intoxicated and delineate in pain. Why does life draws to its end? Why do flowers plunge to its death, when its petals brought joy to the morning? Why is there always death in goodbye, if love is eternal then why you vanish like smoke? Am I to hate you or bless you, when you promise me a lifetime only to find out that it was just a lie? 

I love you far beyond my heart could offer, to the highest heights and the deepest low you are my sanity yet now you are my insanity. My heart stops beating the moment you leave, you took everything of me shredding me to nothingness to the point of no direction: leaving me helplessly in the presence of darkness.

I love you too much, the very same reason why I’m letting you go because I am fully aware that it’s him that you desire and his; your thorough definition of happiness. It hurts like hell but it’s a reality that I have to deal day by day and minute per minute because when say I love you it means unconditional love and love that knows how to sacrifice.

Treasure Chis

Every word written, emotions bleed through thoughts recalled, every single one about you. The story plays out, in too deep this time within me, pieces of you now intertwined. How I want to run, you will never understand just how little I control, when it's my heart that commands.

We are so very different, but also the same the rules that we live by, have been deeply engrained. I face fear in spite of trouble, with you I just can’t pull back retreating into my shell, only to discover it has cracked. It seems that my heart is care-free more than I probably should, likely-becoming a man that I would, perfectly coherent and deeply in love.

I couldn’t go back, even if I tried for I have found heaven and contentment with your presence, for it is not a compromised but a gift of chance. I have lost my identity for you have supplanted it with a heart that floats beyond flight. You have laid it out on a slab and made it known to the world the true beauty that you have bestowed.

I have fallen deeply in a bliss, nothing hidden from view, displayed just for you, that you might know the bottom of my heart and for what its substance. Scalpel sliced through, with the greatest of comfort flawless cataloged, in time I’m sure to please. I have given freely my being nothing even comes close to compare. I entrust this person, secure a space inside your heart, like you have filled every space in mine.

I’ve traveled back in time, to where it all began. I found no regrets; loving you was an easy task with your personality that made the world’s scenery of splendors unfolds. Treasure’s chis have been opened and make known its existence, scattered its goods, transparency, malevolence, and confidence at ease. I do not seek for other happiness or far beyond my grasp, for even in my reveries you content me with your distinctiveness of your own self. I do not know if I truly deserve a goddess within you but theirs one thing that I know best and that’s to love you without frailties till my dying days.

 I LOVE YOU.